GETTING PASS THE PAST

I thought you were my forever I thought nothing could go wrong
Things took a turn now I can't let it go and it's so hard to be strong
I thought you'd be my ride or die and always have my back
It seems I was wrong now I'm left alone on the track 
I'm so surprised cause I really thought you were down
It's just so hard not having you around 
I still would do anything to get you by my side
Without you I just feel so dead inside 
I really hope one day you'll come my way again 
Even through the struggles I'd stick with you to the end
But that was the past and I got over you in time 
So don't come back after you've left me behind
Don't forget the way you treated me and the words so unkind
I've forgotten you basically to your image I'm blind
Used to be so hard but now I'm doing just fine 
Used to miss you so much was under so much stress
All the feelings are gone cause now I'm emotionless
Things done changed and I'm not the same me as before
Don't come back cause when you decided to leave you were sure
Don't come back with your darkness because I've discovered my light 
It was like hell without you but now I'm feeling alright 
5/1/19

ALONE TIME

Got a whole lot on my mind and it's messing up my brain
Smiling with the stars talking to the moon I must be going insane
Family and  friends switched everyone is gone
They're so carefree and I just can't move on
Well now I know to love or trust a soul
At any given minute they can just get up and leave so cold
I won't lie it's really so hard being alone
Pretty hard not having someone to call my own
Sometimes I wonder if this is just how it was meant to be
Trying to erase the past but it's stuck in my history 
Stressing over them but they aren't thinking about me
So hard to explain sometimes inside I feel so empty
I don't know why I keep telling myself I don't care
Deep down I'd be so happy if they were still here 
Either way I just continue fooling myself I'm good
If I could get things back to normal without hesitation I would
Looking forward but the sunny days seem so far away
I guess I'll just keep facing these storms everyday
20/09/18

The Journey Begins

Thanks for joining me!

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

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All this anger stored up I'm just filled with this rage 
Just the result of having all these feelings stored in  a cage 
Stuck in the book of life and I'm trying to find a new page
But I won't lie it gets harder with every new stage
It's like my life hit a rock and just stumbled
One thing went wrong now everything is jumbled
I try to move on and leave everything behind
But until everything is fixed it'll always be on my mind
I won't make it evident I'll be sure to always seem fine
Stuck in a world of darkness and I can't find the sunshine 
Still gonna try my best to reach the broken dream 
Still gonna push on through no matter how hard it may seem
But I won't lie sometime it gets really tough
Feel like giving up felt like I've had enough
In a confused state and I don't know the right choice 
I just want an actual reason to rejoice
I've already given up lost all hope 
But somehow I'm finding ways to cope
4/12/18