GETTING PASS THE PAST

I thought you were my forever I thought nothing could go wrong
Things took a turn now I can't let it go and it's so hard to be strong
I thought you'd be my ride or die and always have my back
It seems I was wrong now I'm left alone on the track 
I'm so surprised cause I really thought you were down
It's just so hard not having you around 
I still would do anything to get you by my side
Without you I just feel so dead inside 
I really hope one day you'll come my way again 
Even through the struggles I'd stick with you to the end
But that was the past and I got over you in time 
So don't come back after you've left me behind
Don't forget the way you treated me and the words so unkind
I've forgotten you basically to your image I'm blind
Used to be so hard but now I'm doing just fine 
Used to miss you so much was under so much stress
All the feelings are gone cause now I'm emotionless
Things done changed and I'm not the same me as before
Don't come back cause when you decided to leave you were sure
Don't come back with your darkness because I've discovered my light 
It was like hell without you but now I'm feeling alright 
5/1/19

SAD AFTERMATH

It's like a knife everyday it sinks a little deeper
The longer I'm away the more I realize I need her
It's like I'm lost and I can''t find my keeper 
On a strange road and I've lost sight of the leader
There's only one thing that can get rid of all this pain
Doesn't seem like I'll ever get it and it's driving me insane
There's nothing I can do to get her off my brain 
She's my only cure all I need like an addict of weed or cocaine
Easy during the day but it gets really hard at night 
Alone in the darkness but she's my only source of light
Don't know how to go on now that she's out of my life
Hits like a bullet hurts more than the stab of a knife
Not having her just makes my mind stray so far away
It becomes harder to cope with everyday
To get her back in my life I'll do whatever it takes
I just hope that she'll forgive me for my past mistakes
It's impossible to not do anything wrong 
I just wish we could be together holding strong
But it seems I won't get what I desire 
I'm so cold but she's the only one that can light my fire
24/9/18

BEHIND THE EYES

To be honest I haven't had these feelings for a while
But whenever I see you I hold back my smile 
I so easily submit to your demands I feel like a helpless child
You keep me so tame even though sometimes I might be wild
I try to avoid these situations but i feel like taking the chance with you
I'm not always optimistic but I see a future with us two 
If by any chance this could happen it would surely be a dream come true
But should I really keep my hopes up I have no clue 
I won't lie I love it when you're around 
You're like my new high when I'm with you I can't feel down
Your cute face oh my when I see your smile my heart melts away 
Deep down I feel so lonely if I don't see you one day 
I've really been thinking and you're the one I want by my side
What I really want to know is if you're down for the ride 
Falling in love that's something I really fear 
I don't know what it is but with you I don't really care 
I don't require much just something that'll last 
Even though Imay be haunted by events in the past 
I'll give you my all everything I can 
Just promise me by my side is where you'll always stand 
I'll be here to support  and help you when times get rough 
With any obstacles we might face try your best to be tough 
Right now you're all I want and you're more than enough
29/11/18